As humans we make mistakes, nobody is perfect but what we need to remember is everybody is imperfect in their own perfect way and it is okay to have a not so good day. Everybody has them no matter how great you may think somebodies life is.
Today has been one of those days for me. Sundays are meant to be a day of rest where you can relax and spend time with your loved ones. Well unfortunately that is not what my Sunday entailed, I have just got back from a very busy day at work, Although I didn’t exactly have the longest shift today it was definitely long enough for me!
As you may know from previous blog posts I suffer with anxiety and depression and recently these have been rocketing sky high for me. I have not had the best of weeks at all and many things have just gone wrong or not worked out in the way I had hoped and this has really made me struggle. I unfortunately did not get the dream job I was dying to get after I thought the interview went so well, the new guy at work really isn’t interested in me even though I think he’s great baring in mind this is the first person I have looked at since luke passing away and lastly my anxiety has just caused me so much trouble with trying to do what seems like the most simple hardest tasks I’ve ever had to do at work. Blugh!
I think everything that has built up inside my silly little mind this week and I couldn’t quite take anymore and finally blew. It was so embarrassing but I had a panick attack at work and just simply burst into tears. It was awful! I decided to take myself out of the situation and asked my manager if I could go down stairs and get a coffee! I sat down there talking to her in a private room for a good hour and a half. We had a full on chat about everything going on in both of our lives and to be honest talking about the problems we were both facing was so helpful. Whether my problems seemed petty or stupid to her, she listened and accepted and tried to help me the best she could and I couldn’t thank her enough for what she did today.
At the point where my panick attack started I was ready to give up on everything and I just wanted to go home and cry in my bed but all thanks to my manager I actually finished my shift today and I am so proud of myself for this. I stood there with the reddest panda eyes, no makeup and a throbbing headache but guess who finished their shift and guess who has gone home today having achieved something.
Me. I did.
So just remember no matter how big or small your problems may be tomorrow is a new day. A chance for you to start all over again. Just because yesterday was bad doesn’t mean tomorrow will be worse.