An open letter to my boyfriend who sadly passed away

An open letter to my boyfriend who sadly passed away

Dear Luke,

My darling Luke, I can’t believe it’s November already. 1 year ago, everything was fantastic in both of our lives. You had just started your dream course studying graphic design at University and I had just come back home from travelling. We had been fortunate enough to have been introduced to one another and we were just beginning our life together as one. It was very early days for us both when it happened but I liked to believe what we had was good and was definitely heading in the right direction. We had both recently just come out of relationships and didn’t realise that there was better out there until we met each other. I remember the first time you came and spoke to me at work. You shook my hand and introduced yourself, “Hi, I’m Luke and I’m your team leader, it’s lovely to meet you Ashleigh” Hahaha, this still makes me laugh to this day. You took your job so seriously and not going to lie, you were the most irritating guy to work with ever. Our very first shift together even got people talking, I remember everyone being like “oh look at Ashleigh and Luke” “There will be a new Sainsburys couple soon, just you wait and see” I absolutely loved the attention especially when you didn’t deny any of it. I knew from the start that there was something special about you.

After a few weeks of talking and flirting at work. The weekend came and everyone from work was heading out in the town, unfortunately you and I were stuck doing the late shift. I was working till 8pm and you were there till 10:30pm, I kept pestering you all evening saying, “please come out” “It would be so good if you did” I didn’t want to come across as needy but at the same time I wanted you there more than anything. You replied, “I can’t, I’m working till 10:30pm and I haven’t got any money at all”. Which surprised me more than ever when someone came and put there freezing cold hands on my back in the bar. Turned around and who winks at me? Mr Luke Mumford, the boy who was working late and had no money at all. I later found out from your best friend that you begged her to lend you the money because you wanted to come out and see me which absolutely melts my heart.

From this point, we hit it off. We spent so much time together, here, there and everywhere. We met each otherโ€™s families and friends and everything was going great. My mum absolutely idolised you and even told me herself that you were a keeper and she was not far from wrong. I loved spending time with your mum and getting to know your brother as well. I knew you were both extremely close, so what made you happy, made me happy to. As much as I felt sorry for you mum, it was always so entertaining when you and Adam used to gang up on her at the dinner table. Although she definitely got her revenge when she pulled out the photo album and you practically run away crying haha! what a cute little baby you were.ย I have so many great memories with you Luke, I wouldn’t even know where to begin. You were always a true gentleman and I can’t say any guy has come close to the dates you took me on. There were no typical nando’s dates with you my dear. I remember when you took me to that old thatched roof restaurant in the countryside that had candle light tables, I almost died. You were so thoughtful and so romantic, always trying to please everyone around you.

You were the naughtiest, cheekiest boy I know. My last memory of you before you left my house that night was when I walked you to the door to say goodbye. You slapped my bum and ran down my drive way shouting “either come catch me now or you’ll have to tell me off later” That was the last time I saw you. Having that memory as our last memory just goes to show how much of a happy and funny guy you were, never ever failed to make me laugh. Another great example of your cheekiness is when you somehow got me to sign myself up for a 9-hour shift on a Saturday, just so you could see me. I hated work but I literally came in just for you.

How on earth did you do it? ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜‚

I just genuinely can’t believe it’s been a whole year now since we lost you. I can’t say its been easiest ride but I like to think i’ve done really well since and I hope you are proud of me, In fact I know you are proud of me. I have never really experienced losing someone so close before you and it’s such a strange feeling. Although you are gone, I have many days were I feel you are still here and I like to believe you do look down on us all. It’s ridiculous but I find myself talking to you all the time like a weirdo. Not a single day goes by where I don’t miss you or even think about you. You were the most fantastic guy I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and I just want you to know I did absolutely adore you. We didn’t exactly get to share the longest amount of time together but I will treasure the time I was fortunate enough to have.

Thank you for being apart of my life and showing me what true happiness felt like.

Yours sincerely,



Luke was not only my boyfriend but an amazing friend, brother, son and person in general. He was actually voted Lad of the week by the Ladbible which then lead to him being voted Lad of the year 2017 for all the amazing things he had done. If you would like to read his story I will share the link with you below. He was a great guy and I know he would absolutely love people to hear about the good things he did in his short life.

Luke Jay Mumford, Lad of the Year LADBIBLE


  1. Thediaryofellie November 8, 2017 / 3:07 pm

    This was so heartbreaking to read but it always nice to think and look back on the all the happy memories, credit to you for sharing this ๐Ÿ’œ

    • Ashleigh Davis November 8, 2017 / 5:25 pm

      Thank you very much lovely! I feel like this was maybe a way of me getting all my emotion out and trying to see the good rather than the bad ๐Ÿ˜Š thank you for reading, I appreciate it lots ๐Ÿ’•

  2. live_a_life_less_ordinary November 9, 2017 / 7:37 am

    I’ve seen you mention this before, but never in so much detail. I can’t imagine what it must be like to go through this. I’ve often said that in my life, I’ve experienced all of the pain and heartache that goes with relationships, but very little to none of the happiness and joy and love and good times. But I’ve never been through anything quite like this. Thank you for sharing, and for being honest. I don’t know what to say, really, but I’m here if you ever need someone to talk to. You know that.

    • Ashleigh Davis November 9, 2017 / 8:15 am

      Thank you for your comment! I think for me this is my way of dealing with it all, instead of dwelling Id rather reminisce the good times and remember him for that instead! But thank you love, I know you are xxx

  3. A Piece of Sarah November 23, 2017 / 7:10 am

    Tears streamed down my face reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m glad you guys have such happy memories. โค๏ธโค๏ธ

    • Ashleigh Davis November 23, 2017 / 10:46 am

      Thank you sweetie! I think thatโ€™s the best thing to do, think about the good and happy memories and try not to dwell on the sad ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’—

  4. Alys November 30, 2017 / 10:52 pm

    This was heartbreaking to read but so beautifully written. I’m sorry for what you’ve had to go through <3

    • Ashleigh Davis November 30, 2017 / 10:57 pm

      Thank you for taking your time to read ๐Ÿ˜Š and I really appreciate you comment! Itโ€™s nice to treasure and remember to good times ๐Ÿ’•

      • Alys November 30, 2017 / 11:02 pm

        Yes definitely, it’s admirable how you’re able to reflect in such a positive way ๐Ÿ™‚

  5. discovering35mm December 6, 2017 / 4:32 pm

    โ™ฅ I’m so sorry for your loss! Thank you for sharing your story with us

    • Ashleigh Davis December 6, 2017 / 4:56 pm

      Thank you for taking the time to read! Means a lot to me ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’ž

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